Wednesday, 8 April 2009

Angels and Agonistics

Introduction.

I don’t really understand people; I doubt I ever really will. Now I mean there are some really good ones, they’re pure, kind and understand when there's a line. But then there are others that simply don’t get that – at all. I think it could be a genetic thing. Some brains have a block that doesn’t allow them to understand bad social situations. I’d like to think that I am one of those people that can understand.

But, I don’t suppose I’ll never know.

If I did know these answers, the answers to everything I would build a time machine. Then I could go back to when things were easier. Maybe scream outside my head and repeat on where things are about to go wrong, then maybe there would be a higher majority that actually understand what to do - So very few that do.

I don’t want to go all Wordsworth on this blog but its times like these when I simply can’t help myself. I mean maybe if everyone had a brain like him, then maybe these little problems we tangle our minds in would simply not exist. We’d all stop and think before acting. And to be honest with the whole acting careers I don’t understand why people are paid to do it, everyone does it all the time. It’s so easy; you can do it without even realising it. It’s called lying.

Back to my friend Wordsworth, he had an interesting way of viewing this world. He thought about it and wrote it down in poetry. Note the word thought. The high tech lives that we live complicate things but that doesn’t mean to say that we have to disintegrate our dignity in the process. Stop and think maybe, then that way cauldrons won’t bubble over?

“You can only blame your problems on the world for so long.”

I don’t think people look into these things properly. In general the world is too busy blaming its problems on the escape goat and at the end of the day there's only one person that it comes down to. Number one. Sure, sometimes actions and words do contribute to something but somewhere down the track something’s gone wrong because no one thinks anymore. Hour after hour I have sat here thinking about this, on how I, myself, am a hypocrite for writing this. I have blamed my problems on many people before, maybe not to word but to thought which is a sin in its own. If you take care for other peoples thoughts and feelings before you act then there is no need for a stage to display yourself on. Things would be easier.

‘I think that it is this kind of thing that separates angels from sinners. ‘

If people thought we wouldn’t be stabbing each other in the street, beating each other up over money, and maybe wars wouldn’t be so brutal. But people don’t think - people act. Its tests like these that shape the human race as a whole, so ask yourself how are you contributing? Chemicals do not run our minds - we do. We hold the steering wheel; a drunk driver is illegal so not thinking could be transposed as doing that inside your head. One day you could kill someone. Metaphorically speaking of course.

Modern day life is selfish, so next time think, because I know I’d rather shape myself up to an angel, wouldn’t you?

I repent.

Tuesday, 7 April 2009

You wouldnt understand : )

Sometimes when i'm feeling wierd i wish i could just jump into my story and fit into the main characters skin.

I like to think of her as my alter ego - shes what I would be if i had the confidence with people. We have many things in common because i design like that. Maybe next time i should look into the lines more and then i could probably understand myself.

Or not.

Ironic isn't it?


That i set this up to let loose of my words but instead now i cant.


Blossom Breezes on my Phospuros Pleases

Life has this really wierd transition of being so low that you can't see above your head and then to being so high that you can only smell the sweet nectar of the blossom breeze.

I think it would be boring being in the middle, don't you think?

Today should be fun, worcester with me maam, prom dress fitting and then twilight afternoon. I just love that film :)

I think i shall go get dressed now, before my mum comes and gets me from sophos.

Byeeeeeeee

Monday, 6 April 2009

I am in love

With my story.

I truly wish that true love like that could be apparent in my world

*puts on googly eyes*

:)

Niight xx

This is a ANGRY blog.

I am at sophies house sat here in my little chair writing a blog. Yes.

Now i have had advise from a friend of mine to not be angry and pissed off to prevent myself from doing something that i will soon later regret. Well i care so im doing it this way. Because right now to be quite frank i am pissed off.

I knew I KNEW something like this would happen and tbh i shouldnt even care because my heart belongs to someone else.

Now im not gonna be nasty, and im not gonna be a bitch. It just would have been nice to know without finding out with my sixth sense. I am done now. But dont expect anything. Because i am done.

Its like when i found out the sims three was postponed - this is not me imploding.

Friday, 3 April 2009

Now that we're done.

"Everybody get down!"

This weeks been strange, and now i feel like i have been sat here before. Here i am - at my 'inbetween.'

I've been slurring alot lately, and dreaming wierd shit. I actually have interest in stuff but i wonder how long this will last?

Oh well dog soon.